Addicted to Almost: Breaking Free from the Sedation of “Soon”
There’s a specific kind of torture that doesn’t come from failure—but from feeling almost there. From chasing the high of being on the edge of something great. That hopeful rush just before a breakthrough, the near-sneeze of awakening. And then... nothing. Just another loop of anticipation followed by delay.
This is the addiction nobody talks about:
The addiction to almost.
We romanticize the grind, worship the “next level,” and sit in the corner of our consciousness sedated by the fantasy of becoming—without ever fully arriving.
The Sedation of the Story
You’ve been telling yourself a story.
That you’re working on it.
That you’re healing.
That you’re about to have your big shift.
That something’s coming soon.
And maybe all of that was true… for a while. But eventually, even healing becomes a trap if it’s just a performance. If you’re chasing an awakening like it’s some finish line that never arrives, you’ll stay addicted to the chase. Not the healing. Not the peace. Just the almost.
It’s a chemical cocktail—hope, delay, guilt, ambition, and just enough dopamine to keep you hooked.
You Can’t Say No, So You Stay Needed
You’ve become the emotional dumping ground.
The endless giver.
The one who always shows up, even when your own soul is begging for rest.
Why?
Because being needed makes you feel safe.
Being essential to everyone else numbs the pain of not knowing who you are without them.
You’re terrified of what would happen if no one needed you. So you stay useful. You stay involved. You stay stuck.
That’s the real addiction: the illusion of importance.
And let’s be honest—it’s not compassion anymore. It’s control. It’s survival. It’s distraction from facing the truth that maybe, just maybe… it’s you who needs you most right now.
The Mirror Doesn’t Lie
The real work is not in giving more, helping more, doing more.
It’s in pausing.
Looking in the mirror.
And asking:
Who am I if I’m not fixing everyone?
What’s left if I stop chasing and just be?
Am I safe now… or am I still running from ghosts?
Because that high you’re chasing? That breakthrough?
It’s not coming to you.
It’s waiting within you.
It’s only when you get honest—with the patterns, the performances, the pleasing—that the chains start to fall.
You’re Not Broken, You’re Just Done With the Old Script
You don’t need to keep rehearsing this role.
You’re not broken.
You’re just done.
Done pretending almost is enough.
Done living in “one day.”
Done feeding your potential but starving your reality.
There’s a different path. One that starts the second you stop performing and start living.
You don’t need permission.
You need a moment of truth.
And that moment is now.
🌀 Closing Reminder
Every time you say yes to the same old sedation, you’re saying no to your liberation.
It’s time to break the spell. Step out of the loop. Wake up from the trance of “almost.”
You are here.
Now.
Capable.
And ready.
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